Poem: I Fear

I fear what I once was, alone and sad.
I fear that I am more of an introvert than I thought I was.
I fear that I will cling to solace more than my desire for company.
I fear being stuck with those my heart does not beat for.
I fear that I am too smart for the stupid and not smart enough for the intelligent.
I fear that I will settle for less than I deserve.
I fear that I deserve less than I truly believe.
I fear that my brand of unique will not have it’s place.
I fear that am too guarded and damaged to find my way.
I fear that this world is filled with too much dishonesty.
I fear that trust is a fable I cannot obtain.
I fear that my walls are too strong to break through.
Trust has always been the breaker of my spirit.
My father, mother, brother, best friend, and now husband.
I fear that I will never find trust again.

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